Wednesday, September 24, 2008
To be a Better Mom
This morning I was sitting on the couch eating my cornpops and watching Jack playing on the floor and he was staring right back at me with this super serious look he gets on his face when he's trying so hard to figure something out. We sat there and stared at eachother for a good 10 minutes him just trying to figure his Mommy out. He does this alot. When I rock him to sleep at night or for his nap he stares into my face for anywhere from 5 to 15 minutes and he plays with my face and he just tries to figure me out, he copies my expressions and watches my reactions. Its moments like this that make me realize I need to hurry up and become a better person and a better Mom immediately. I didn't think it happened so quickly that your children started noticing your behaviours and copying them and following your example, but I can see it happening already. This little guy is going to learn so many things from me, he is going to cling to my testimony and pattern his behaviours after mine and Branden's and it just makes me realize that I need to stop procrastinating all the things I know I need to improve. I need to make sure my testimony is as strong as it can be, that I am as healthy and happy as I can be and that I am the best possible example I can be.